Vicariously.

[Crista Ramone]

I woke this morning with a purpose, something that has been on my mind, always on my mind, to find inspiration, to lose myself in a precious moment. The specifics are always different from one day to the next, maybe a strip of fabric, a walk through hovering trees, or a simple staring contest with the wall as my mind wanders through uncharted territory in my subconscious.

But a movie was chosen today, Beautiful Creatures, a story about witches, outcasts, and love, oh my, my heart is racing as I take my seat among five other observers at the 1030am showtime with their cheap chicken fingers and stale popcorn lining my burnt out nostrils. I disappear from Earth for 2 hours and 12 minutes taking in the dark atmosphere that is magic and allure, leaving not wanting to be human for the thousandth moment in my lifetime, wanting to embrace an alternative lifestyle that is impossible outside the realms of my mind.

The purpose was served today as I stare blankly at the cashier ringing me up in Giant but why do I feel so empty, so alive, and so dormant all in the same breath with a need to fulfill this hopeless dream of living. But then I remember who I am, a girl who lives vicariously through her books, and snaps back into reality.

[Crosby Kenyon]

Hey.  It's gonna be okay.

[Ali Znaidi]

A beautiful piece. All bookworms would find themselves in your beautiful sentence "But then I remember who I am, a girl who lives vicariously through her books, and snaps back into reality." We all oscillate between what we read in books & what we live in reality.

[Joey Delgado]

So well said. I have wanted to be a vampire, a superhero, a anything but human as long as it's something cool. Your writing here is superb. I like the contrast between wanting to be completely immersed in the movie, but the smell of the cheap/expensive movie theatre food kind of tethers you to reality. 

Great great six.

[Adrian George Nicolae]

You're a bit like me in that way of trying an alternative lifestyle (although I changed mine last year.)

I often do a staring contest, but not at the wall. Sometimes with my cat, while sometimes it happens when I'm doing something interesting and then I fall in my mind, adding and detracting stuff somewhat related to what I was doing.

[Angela]

Simply wonderful.  Your 5th was a treasure.  Fine, fine work.

[Crista Ramone]

@Toby I'm going to sound ignorant when it comes to traveling when I say this, but Giant isn't everywhere?! LOL I don't get out much.

[Toby Tucker Hecht]

Books, movies, and plays do shape us in many ways.  Thanks for pouring it out.

P.S.  I noticed the use of Giant and I checked and you live in my state!