Steppin'!

[Robert Crisman]

This whole Step business, especially the idea of God and all that--it used to drive me stark raving nuts my first time around in NA.

I had my image as a certified bonaroo Genius to protect, and God was for punks, I could prove it, and meanwhile, the God I grew up with was a vicious rat bastard, the kind who'll fuck up your sex life for starters, and I couldn't get it out of my head that "recovery" meant being some snake-sucking Moron For Jesus, you know, in Broke Dick, Montana or some fucking place, and what kind of Look Good was that?

Well, uh, things change: my Genius kept me stuck in a mudhole, long past the time I could call it adventure, and I decided that I had to change, and I'd chewed up the cops, courts and shrinks and all that long ago, and the only thing left was that last little house on the block...

I'd hated the fact that nobody there gave a good rusty fuck what I looked like, but this time, well, NA was still the last house.

Fast forward two months: it ain't been too shabby at all; I sent my Genius home to his mother even though he begged me to stay, and he still keeps trying to creep back, but I toss off a prayer that my sponsor suggested that makes him do pet tricks, and meanwhile I slipped into gear and got busy, following suggestions the way that they're outlined there in the lit, and man, it's been a load off my mind.

I'm even working the Steps like I meant it, and right now, today, I don't care if the Power I need is called God or the Galloping Gourmet, because I am a guy who needs help, and however it gets here is okay with me; hell, bring on them snakes...

[Joey Delgado]

Great read. Brutal honesty leading to brutal inspiration. 'Bring on them snakes' for sure. :) Liked this. Will be reading it every morning before work, especially the last sentence.

[Bob Clay]

Somethin tells me ya just going with the flow there Robert ... ☺

[Judy Thompson]

the Galloping Gourmet concept is a pretty cool one, too. At least there's the chance of some pretty good food as a reward.  And seriously,  steps is what it's all about.  This step and then the next one, never MIND how many are left.  It's what's in front of you that counts.

[Brittany]

Awesome to read! I have to favorite!

[Sandra Davies]

And a pretty major step too - all congratulations to you for taking it.

[Paul de Denus]

Step on them snakes and write it down- that's your power Robert. Always a pleasure to read you.

[Michael Brown]

Nice to hear you're getting happy for whatever reason you see fit to celebrate. You just may become insufferable being at peace, and being a wizard at writing. I'm still working on the former in my own life, and the latter I realized many months past in looking down that road that I had so far to go and there you were already nearing the horizon.

I'm joking of course about your becoming insufferable because I envy your facility in the realm of words. I sincerely wish you many happy days ahead.

--M