I Remember X Two--Bill Lapham's Challenge

[Robert Crisman]

One

I remember all the long years of addiction, from the time I was three.

I remember my mother's feelings of guilt and her fear.

I remember telling my father I'd kill him.

I remember walking those dead downtown streets.

I remember telling myself that I wasn't an addict, that I was too slick and smart for the NA bamboozle--until May 14th, when I woke up next door to wanting to go buy a gun and have done with what passed for my life.

I remember thinking next time I'm dead.

Two

I remember Cherokee saying, "Don't think; your mind's out to kill you."

I remember trying to "figure it out" the first time around in NA, in order to get to the head of the class, pick up my diploma, and get out the door, yet how all my thinking just screwed me right into cement.

I remember Cherokee saying, when I asked him if he'd be my sponsor, "I'd be honored."

I remember thinking, well, this time around, when in Rome...

I remember following some simple suggestions, and putting the brakes on resistant bullshit, and feeling my rage recede  just a little.

I remember thinking, so far, so good...

[Mike Handley]

Perfect parting words. 

[Bill Floyd]

I imagine these things are never very far from your memory.  Keep on.  Keep writing.  

[Sandra Davies]

So far, so very, very good.   As someone who has never really been challenged I take my hat of to you, you have learnt lessons I never knew existed.

[Angela]

I remember some of that rage, my Peeps, and it is better.  Let's both keep doing what we're doing.  I'm proud of you for disclosing so much.  It had to be a challenge.  Well done.