On being a human being.

[Scarlett Rose]

It's been one week since Cyril died and there was all this grief after his death that my head dealt with perfectly fine but my stomach and my eyes and my heart could not handle; this tidal wave of fear rolling over me as I struggled to comprehend what it meant to not exist anymore - all the while feeling so angry that I had to feel anything at all.

Long ago, I decided that being a human was too hard, too painful. I decided I was incapable of feeling, incapable of articulating, of doing, of breathing, of existing. I thought I was too much of everything. Too scared, too emotional, too intense, too needy, too dependent, too independent, too quiet, too loud, too rambly, too awkward, too outspoken, too upfront, too verbose, too honest, too much too much too much.

And what a crushing realisation it was to establish that this is it, this is life, this is how it is and I can either take it or leave it: I intend on taking it ... and running far, far away.

[Scarlett Rose]

I CHANGED THE LAST SENTENCE.

The other one made no sense in my head.

[Jenny Darlington]

I love how real and true this is. I think we all must go through a period in our lives when nothing makes sense and we wonder, "what's the point?" But eventually, it all evens out and the sweet times become all that much sweeter for the confusion and sorrow and pain.

[Toby Tucker Hecht]

The good thing, though, is that we have other human beings to look after and who look after us.  It's a great life.  Beautiful and honest writing.

[bolton carley]

writers tend to over-analyze themselves, but they also come to the right conclusions.  way to show your angst on paper.

[Jeanette Cheezum]

TOO GOOD. My dear,  you have really grown in your writing. If this wasn't ficton...I'm sorry for your loss.

[Jamie Hogan]

And yet, if we weren't this way, if sentence five, and the conflict it speaks, wasn't so true, we couldn't produce anything so sublime as this six.

[Gita]

It's all because of the goddam huge cerebral cortex. Don't you just hate that thing?

Great rant. I love it when you get riled up and let the words roll out.

[Joey Delgado]

Very honest description of the valleys. But I agree with Edward, the conclusion is the perfect peak.

[Edward Dean]

Excellent conclusion SR.

A powerful message in 6!

[Teresa]

Sentence five is probably what shouts at every human, give or take a few substitutions.  We're a mess.  A complete beautiful mess.  We have love/hate relationships with ourselves.  Your "too much too much too much" = <~*PASSION*~>.  Exquisite.