Better Now

[Angela]

I don’t think in poems anymore, or feel the right adjective.  I don’t cry and refuse to eat or bathe.  I don’t see the heartbreaking beauty that I know is buried in small things.  I don’t know how to slow down time like I used to.  People converse with me, and I know what they are saying.  My meds have made me normal, and I think I hate it.

[Judy Thompson]

long time ago someone said, "I was on bipolar meds for two years, and I didn't have a single thought for all of that time".   Gita's right,  it's a trade. 

 

Normal is a viewpoint, not a condition.

[Robert Crisman]

Pix, glad you're back.

[Gita]

It's a tradeoff every day, a balancing act and no net under the high wire. They tell us the meds are the net, but they can be the cage where the animals are kept. The good part is the absence of sharp grief; the other part, as you so perfectly describe it, is a numbness. Do you want to see the world in sharp reds and blues but mourn, or see the world in beige and part with the pain? I don't know either.

[Joey Delgado]

Haha! Great stuff. Cut the regimen, it's time to feel.