I have a feeling that one day I will look back on these moments that I now take for granted and wonder why I let them, and the reason they are so special, slip away from me. The way he says "I love you" and "you're beautiful" and I can see it in his eyes that that he actually means it. The way his nose wrinkles when he truely laughs, that is even more brilliant when I am the one who caused such happiness. The way he comforts me when I'm sad and holds my hand in public no matter how embarrassing… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on February 5, 2010 at 11:18pm —
I just appeared there, no car had brought me, no plane taken me, I just appeared, I stood there in his driveway, staring at the space around me, the bushes to my right and the garage to my left, and finally at the door. He appeared, almost like I had, in the doorway, not seeming to know how he had got there, but then he saw me. He took a step so he was now standing outside, and he smiled so much, it was the best thing I had ever seen, so I ran, to him, to that smile I loved and knew so well, to… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on October 16, 2009 at 4:12am —
The wind blows through the trees, making the leaves shiver and gives the mountain life and breath, it sighs in the glory of the community living in its wake. The breeze blows through my hair as I stand on the top of the mountain, looking out over a city that destroyed the once beautiful valley that lay below. The trees are gone, the animals, the streams, and the place I used to roam free. The mountain is my home now, up in the snow, and nature. I wonder how people can live without it, where the… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on October 12, 2009 at 3:54am —
Fear. A nagging, persistent pain, that captures the heart, the mind, the body and soul. It sends shivers down your spine to the bottom of your boots. My entire being is trying to fight it off, my heart is thumping strongly to loosen Fears grip, my body shaking, my mind pulsing, but to no avail. This fear comes from the idea of losing him, the one I believe I love, and despite my minds attempts this is one thing my heart will not release. Is this what love really is, a constant battle against… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on October 8, 2009 at 6:45pm —
I want you, God knows I do, but I fear wanting you too much. You broke my heart last time, leaving me on the curb to pick myself up, not even attempting to help me. I watched you with those other girls in envy of their every moment with you, but now I hope that you are mine once again. I do want you too much, too much for my own good, for should I trust a man who has broken me more than once? And yet, I do, I trust you whole-heartedly, though I know I should loathe the very ground you walk on.… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on August 19, 2009 at 6:24am —
You know those people everyone remembers, the great entertainers like Elvis and Michael Jackson, the brainiacs like Einstein, and Newton, wouldn't it be nice to be remembered like one of them. I won't be remembered like them, I will live and laugh, love and cry, but never be remembered by more than those who love me back, but thats enough for me. But I wonder, what about those people who struggle through life and come from the very bottom to make their way in the world. The ones who fight, and… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on August 9, 2009 at 12:00am —
He saved me, thats whats ironic. Sure I didn't wait for him, I kept struggling through, but he guided me through the toughest parts of the track, saved my sanity and maybe my life too. But now I'm dying, at his hands, hes burning my throat with his fingers. He slowly wrestles the life out of my body and vision begins to fade. I mouth the words I longed to tell him...
"I always loved you!!!"
I wonder if he heard me, because I never did .....
Added by vampire_rose on July 6, 2009 at 5:00am —
Are all men so repulsive, so cold? Do they think nothing of other peoples feeling, do they not care if they leave your heart out for the fire to burn? They slime their way in through the gaps of your defending wall, make you trust them, then destroy your whole defence and leave you there for the enemy to annihilate. They leave you vulnerable and weak and they don't even glance back to look at the damage they have done. Are they all like this, is this why we are a world of broken people?
Added by vampire_rose on May 28, 2009 at 3:00am —
How do we define normal in a world full of things that are never the same?? Everything is different, every animal, everyday, every sky, so what is normal? what defines it as normal? just because the majority has it, if everyone had crooked teeth would we all go to the orthodontist to make the straight teeth crooked? Just because I think of things differently and act a little strange does that make me abnormal?? What if people acted like me, then we would be in one weird, but normal by our… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on May 23, 2009 at 10:54am —
He looked up and saw the girl, so beautiful, but with a single tear rolling down her rosy cheeks, and he wondered what made her cry. For the next few months he saw this girl everyday walking the same stretch of road, but everyday a new tear would come to her eye. Eventually she was no longer beautiful, her eyes were red and puffy, her rosy cheeks had the trails of the many tears she had shed etched into them, her frown lines now clearly visable, even though she was bearly 20. But he never… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on May 22, 2009 at 9:19am —
As he goes to sit down our eyes meet, just for a second, but that second I will never forget. His hair spiked up, his deep brown eyes looking straight into mine, the butterflies react immediatly. We both look away as quickly as possible each as embarrassed as the other. He was a big distraction in that exam and now in this one too! He is only two seats infront, one row to the right, a perfect glancing point, Unfortunately !!!! He flicks through his exam and places it on the table, he's bored,… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on May 16, 2009 at 12:48am —
He begged me to stay, looking at me with his beautiful brown eyes, but I turned away, I had to leave. His strong hand grabbed mine and i spun to face him again...
" why can't you stay, you belong here"
" I don't belong here, you know that, everyone knows that, I need to go home" I had stayed here to long, in the middle of a forest in a civilisation no one knew anything about. I had to go back to running water that wasn't always freezing cold, back to toilet paper, chocolate, electric… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on May 10, 2009 at 12:00am —
It's not the end of the world....
but it sure feels like it.
My body not wanting ot move,
but my heart wanting jump out into the darkness of space,
the space where nothing can hurt you.
Not rejection, failure, embarrassment, deciet, disloyalty....
It wants to be free from it all, but it can't break out. It's stuck
stuck in this body of feelings. This… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on May 5, 2009 at 4:53pm —
It's rather lonely being an only child, especially when you live somewhere like me. I live about an hours walk from town, so I can't just pop in to meet some friends, I have to organise it a few days in advance, which for a teenager is at best, difficult. The boys next door keep each other company, playing video games and sport, and the girls up the road are too interested in the boys next door to call on me. My family are great, but there is no one really to 'hang' with and play playstation… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on May 2, 2009 at 1:59am —
Staring into space, thinking of nothing, your mind numb, body weak and your heart empty of emotion. Dangerous times are to come when this happens to you, especially when the ones you love smile at you and you can't smile back no matter how much you want to. Your body is incapable of such things, of such thoughts as happiness, as such feelings as joy. The darkness of nothing is returning to your heart but you're fighting it this time, trying to believe you can keep a hold of the light, and… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on May 1, 2009 at 6:54am —
The feeling of doubt is horrible. But when it is a doubt in a friendship you have trusted for so long, it eats away at you until you feel, well, almost empty. The hollowness of the meaning of that friendship becomes an itch, irritating and sometimes painful, and leaves you wondering why it came to be this way. What happened to it, I cannot even recall. I trusted that friendship to last a lifetime, and here I am criticising every moment of its existence, wondering if it ever meant anything to… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on May 1, 2009 at 2:50am —
How do you comfort someone, make them feel better, tell them everything will be ok, when you know it won't? How do you stop someone blaming themselves for a stupid mistake, when you know it is
all their fault? How can you lie, when they know you are just as annoyed at them as they are at themself? You want to make them feel better, but you are too angry at them, and they should feel bad for what they have done. You know if you did the same thing they would be even more furious at you,… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on April 24, 2009 at 7:24pm —
Anger boils to the top of my being, filling my soul right to the brim. For some reason I don't want to let it go, I want it to bubble and grow and overflow and and release it on to him. I want to let the fire within me burn his skin and make him regret what he has done. I trusted him to protect it, I trusted him to keep it safe. But now he has lost it and he isn't even attempting to retrieve it. Can I forgive him? Not right now, right now I'm going to let the fire burn.
Added by vampire_rose on April 7, 2009 at 3:17am —
The dew clings to my legs as I run through the long grass of the meadow, birds fly up from my oncoming footsteps into the setting sky. The big oak sits in the coner in the breeze, and it's shadow plays (dancing) tricks on the mind. I keep running towards the style and then something catches my eye, a light in the roots of the magnificent oak. I slow and cautiously wander towards the oak keeping my eye on the magical light. When I get close enough to almost make it out, the light flies into the… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on April 7, 2009 at 3:05am —
Wandering, I keep wandering, I don’t know where I’m going and I don’t know my destination. But I keep going, through the darkness, in a direction unknown. I stumble down a path overgrown with rocks on the ground and branches scratching my face. I feel my way along the wall and reach a gap in it, I go through the space and feel grass beneath my feet. It is still dark but I keep wandering and stumbling and wandering once more. Where am I going? I don’t know, why am I going? Because my dreams are… Continue
Added by vampire_rose on April 6, 2009 at 3:37am —