I lied to myself for many years, but in 2009 I was eventually diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa. It's been a long and slow and painful and awful process; eventually ending up bulimic and in a hospital bed after taking an OD. I decided I was going to begin recovery. And not just the type of recovery that meant I still didn't like my body and still weighed myself every now and then and still had a somewhat abnormal…