I've done lots of things I thought were hard to do....say goodbye to my grandpa when he died (the man filled role of father and grandfather for me), walk out on a marriage of over 11 years with nearly nothing but my pride and my boys, be the first in my family to go to college and earn a degree, make my mom become responsible and be a parent rather than a child, but the hardest thing I have ever done is the thing I will do tomorrow.....I have to take my boys to their dad's for 6 weeks in the summer....and I've NEVER spend more than 4 days away from them. Yes, this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
I can relate. Spent years sharing parenting. Take this time to be good to yourself. I said goodbye to my girls for a whole year and I'm only into my 4th month - missing them terribly. We're at either end of 2 different Americas. We speak almost weekly and they're coming to visit me in August. Be thankful that we were able to practice empty-nesting . . .
Put down a mastiff, who went to the vet's for minor, exploratory surgery. The doc found an inoperable, untreatable tumor in his air passage that would have killed him in a few days anyway, so he never woke up from a routine vet visit. I didn't want him to suffer because I lacked the courage to do a tough thing. All the other hardest things I've done in my life were not quite so final.